Questions for YOU!

Do you miss me?

Do you dream about me?

Do I make you happy?

Do you want to be more than friends?

Does it pain you when we can't talk?

Do I bore you?

Do you think we are perfect together?

Do I like okay?

Do I make you smile?

Do you have any idea what you do to me?

Do you love me?

Let Your Light Come In

There hit goes again, setting my day on fire with the way it speaks. He doesn’t realize it, but its existence brings sunshine to the tornado within me. With my star, it’s always rainbows and butterflies, nothing seems miserable or dismal. My star manages to eradicate all pessimism within me, I love him for that.

My star is also honest. It speaks the truth about what it feels, and therefore its rays are so pure. When they strike through me, I sense all kinds of splendor and clarity, it’s magical!

I have grown so affectionate of it that it ventured into my dreams last night. When it was raining hard and the clouds thundered with maximum aggressiveness, my star irradiated my dreams, making them so sweet I never want to forget it.

The ending is what excites me the most every time I think of the dream. I vividly recall that I was enjoying a ride on a swing. My star was standing a few feet away. Then suddenly, everything blurred like smoke and I was asleep. When I woke, I saw a note from it that said it stole a kiss while I was quiescent in my slumber. Now, whenever I think about it I can’t help but pretend to feel his hotness and vigor striking against the flesh of my lips.

If only, all of it was somatic and existent. 

Songs For My Star ♥

Breakeven- The Script

My Life Would Suck Without You- Kelly Clarkson

Teenage Dream- Katy Perry

Crush- Mandy Moore

Only Hope- Mandy Moore

You- Switchfoot

Parachute- Cheryl Cole

Here Without You- 3 Doors Down

The Reason- Hoobastank

Far Away- Nickelback

Hot- Avril Lavigne

You Make Me Feel- Cobra Starship

Locked Out of Heaven- Bruno Mars

Troublemaker- Olly Murs

Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol

Too Close- Alex Clare

Dare You To Move- Switchfoot

The Sun Feels. . .

The Sun has fallen in love! It’s surreal, unreal. It makes me delighted, overjoyed! My daydreams are now completely directed to you and you alone! I think about your touch, your breath, close to me. I imagine your hand slowly coming towards mine and taking it gently. The trace makes me blush, it feels so good! I pretend you pull it closer, pull me closer. You and I are only an inch apart. Our fire is colliding, making beautiful energy that is enlightening all corners of our lives. We laugh, and that adds butterflies in me, they are fluttering rapidly. Do you feel it too?

The next time if we are together, you only a few feet away; I would want run to you and wrap my arms around you and smile, letting you know how your existence makes me feel. I feel happy, treasured. I feel the desire to be pressed into a wall, with no where to go, only you and i. Breathing deeply into each other’s faces. We would shut off the world so no one can judge us.

It would only be you and I, together; with no where to go. I would slowly run my hand across your face, seeing you grin. You would pull me nearer, till everything is blank and your light is all I could see. I would give into that light, sinking in its glow, feeling its warmth go down me. You’d swallow me whole; The Sun would disappear and come out as something bigger, better and brighter! The Sun would come to be with you, the star that keeps it on the surface; the reason the Sun smiles everyday. The reason the Sun has learned to blush, to feel excited, to sense the butterflies deep within!

But the Sun worries too. The things that worry the Sun are denial, treachery and differences. The Sun is frightened if it would be rejected by a star such as you. You are flawless, sometimes words fail for you. The Sun is also afraid of betrayal. What if you share your light with our suns, and I’m left shaded? What if you betray me in time of need, if you refuse to help me? The Sun is also afraid of our differences, what if they come to tear us apart, and a reason for us to separate? What will the Sun do then? Go back to give light to others and die from the inside? The Sun is afraid of not being with you.

But, most importantly, the Sun is afraid to love.

In Your Memory

In your memory, your sweet memory, I sit here all by myself, listening to love songs. The interruptions between us have maddened me and now to let my heart’s desires pour, I calm myself by hearing words of affection from different people.

Talking to you has become a routine, and when that breaks it drives me senseless. I have gone insane just thinking about it; The Sun is lonesome without your company! It has begun to hate the world for tearing us apart for so long. Right now, I’m wondering if you miss me too, the way I am missing you, with all my heart. I question myself of whether you want to talk to me? Do you feel the urge punching and twisting your stomach the way mine is?

Everyday of talking to you has put a smile on my face, it has made me cheerful. Elated. I have been riding the skies on cloud 9 almost every night after talking to you, but tonight, the skies are grey, the clouds are thundering and the rain is pouring hard, drowning my happiness with it. Thinking about you has cooked up a hurricane within me, and I have reached the brink of insanity. If only you could see me right now, I wish you would break and sweep me in your arms.

The Sun’s blaze has been shadowed by a dark day, and it feels miserable. When you orbit next to me, I burn my brightest. The fire erupts from within, and it goes through my veins, lighting up the surface! When you come closer, a bit too close, I burst. The intensity of having you around is too much to handle. I, the Sun, am absorbed, swallowed by your presence. Your distinct, radiant presence.

You are my star, if only you knew that. I want to come closer to you, but if I break from my circle, I’ll lose my way, the way I did before. Another star once called me to it, and I ran to it, leaving behind a feisty trail of fire, but that fire slowly extinguished as I lost my way into the vast galaxy, with no one to guide me; No, not even my star!

But you, you take me places I always wanted to go. You take me to different galaxies, as we dance together, blazing and burning just by being together with each other! We touch various surfaces, we come so close to be one, but that slowly takes me out of my path, and then again, I am torn in two. My incandescence, my fury vanishes.

In your memory, I weep. Why? Only because you make me what I am. You are special, so special because along with shining brightly yourself, you share that light with me, illuminating my dark corners. You make me laugh, and that’s when I’m set on fire. I never want to leave your existence. If only you could read between the lines, what I say to you. If only you understand. And, if you do, just know this. You are my star. Your light keeps me together. It’s only been days since I’ve noticed your presence, but it has vivified me, illuminated me. It has given me life. The Sun has never burned so brighter.