In Your Memory

In your memory, your sweet memory, I sit here all by myself, listening to love songs. The interruptions between us have maddened me and now to let my heart’s desires pour, I calm myself by hearing words of affection from different people.

Talking to you has become a routine, and when that breaks it drives me senseless. I have gone insane just thinking about it; The Sun is lonesome without your company! It has begun to hate the world for tearing us apart for so long. Right now, I’m wondering if you miss me too, the way I am missing you, with all my heart. I question myself of whether you want to talk to me? Do you feel the urge punching and twisting your stomach the way mine is?

Everyday of talking to you has put a smile on my face, it has made me cheerful. Elated. I have been riding the skies on cloud 9 almost every night after talking to you, but tonight, the skies are grey, the clouds are thundering and the rain is pouring hard, drowning my happiness with it. Thinking about you has cooked up a hurricane within me, and I have reached the brink of insanity. If only you could see me right now, I wish you would break and sweep me in your arms.

The Sun’s blaze has been shadowed by a dark day, and it feels miserable. When you orbit next to me, I burn my brightest. The fire erupts from within, and it goes through my veins, lighting up the surface! When you come closer, a bit too close, I burst. The intensity of having you around is too much to handle. I, the Sun, am absorbed, swallowed by your presence. Your distinct, radiant presence.

You are my star, if only you knew that. I want to come closer to you, but if I break from my circle, I’ll lose my way, the way I did before. Another star once called me to it, and I ran to it, leaving behind a feisty trail of fire, but that fire slowly extinguished as I lost my way into the vast galaxy, with no one to guide me; No, not even my star!

But you, you take me places I always wanted to go. You take me to different galaxies, as we dance together, blazing and burning just by being together with each other! We touch various surfaces, we come so close to be one, but that slowly takes me out of my path, and then again, I am torn in two. My incandescence, my fury vanishes.

In your memory, I weep. Why? Only because you make me what I am. You are special, so special because along with shining brightly yourself, you share that light with me, illuminating my dark corners. You make me laugh, and that’s when I’m set on fire. I never want to leave your existence. If only you could read between the lines, what I say to you. If only you understand. And, if you do, just know this. You are my star. Your light keeps me together. It’s only been days since I’ve noticed your presence, but it has vivified me, illuminated me. It has given me life. The Sun has never burned so brighter.