Lost In The Universe

After two years of intense struggle, the Sun has finally been able to let lose the abundant energy it possessed. Like it said before, the Sun has never burned so bright! The Sun feels life again! It always wants to be near its star’s radiance and heat that fills the hollow spaces within the Sun.

Little does the Sun’s wonderful star know that it is vacant from the inside, where it gives off light to others but owns none itself.

There are no penetrating reactions going on inside the Sun’s core. It breathes on the light that its star provides to it. The star is the only thing keeping it together, the reason the Sun does not want to end itself, to extinguish itself!

Every time the Sun is reminded of its presence, the surface ignites and flames rupture, blazing with ferocity! The Sun feels full of life for the brief moments it relishes with the star! It finds it difficult to express to the star how much it means to it. It wants the star to know that everyday, a few, precious moments with it is the only time the Sun beams!

Still Human: Butterflies. Bursting volcanoes. Words fail when it comes to describing my state of kind as I talk endlessly with him! My heart doesn’t skip a beat, it hurdles! For once, my eyes have some sort of depth in them, they have joy and vibrancy! For once, my laughter is not void. My eroded inner is patched up! Talking to him gives me hopefulness and responsibility, responsibility to not end myself. I have something to live for. You!

I weep in your longing as I remind myself of the barriers that part us! People around me deem it a crime for me to enjoy myself. For once, I want to live for myself. I want to satisfy myself! And being with you does exactly that!

It’s a miracle! A beautiful miracle that you accepted me since I am so inert from within, something you have yet to experience. The only time I do feel vitality conquering me is when I’m talking to you, I don’t want it to stop! If I meet you, I’d want to stop time right there! Those few moments would be the one’s I’d enjoy for myself. Your presence moves mountains within me, you shake me to my core, and you touch my soul and breathe life into it.

I wish I could do more for you, like you do for me. These days are the worst, since I have fallen ill and I can’t talk to you.

The Sun: These days, the Sun is fading.

Girl On Fire!

Yesterday, the Sun had to embark on the hardest mission of it's life. That mission being to confess my disclosed feelings to my star.
How did i do it?
It was hard, it felt impossible, but i managed.
The evening was subtle, it wasn't raining, and i was on the computer like an owl, talking to my star endlessly, carrying out our nonsensical and hilarious discussions. And then, something stirred inside me. I re read our conversation from the start and noticed how much i grew fond of him, and would not like to miss the chance to lose him. That school girl crush was slowly turning into something more, something deep. It was like the molten inside me began to shoot up instantly, asking me to open myself, or else I'll regret it my whole life!
I had hinted to him before about my feelings to my star, only not referring to it and some other imaginary soul instead. But, that was growing frustrating. I wanted him to know it's him! I was eager to know if he likes me back!
So i mustered up the courage to tell him. I was hesitant. Another friend of mine who knew about my feelings kept insisting to reveal them to him. It was absurd, the idea. But, then, it wouldn't hurt to try.
My star is the kind of person who is excessively considerate and equally loving, and wouldn't hurt my feelings. I'd trust him with that!
Besides, we were having a friendly conversation and i thought he wouldn't even bother to ponder over what i have just said.
But he did, and that moment was when my anxiety was accelerating fast. I swallowed half a bar of a huge Dairy Milk bar just to calm myself. I fell on the couch, laughing like an idiot. I stuffed my face in the pillow and tried to think straight, he probably thinks I'm mad, and irrational! But i yearned for him. He is one in a million, trillion of all the bright stars that light up the night sky. he is that shooting star i once saw. I had gazed upon it for so long, sinking into it's wonder! I wondered whether i would be able to hold one, or at least see one more closer.
And i did.
I met him.
My shooting star, illuminating all corners of my life.
And here i am right now, curing my restless soul by listening to love songs. They fill my mind with radiant views of me and my star, laughing, smiling, holding hands, sharing beautiful energy. If he was next to me right now, i would want to melt into his arms, and never let go. I'd want to give all my energy to him, feel his warmth. Just like he shared it, in that vivid dream. i still feel your heat, it ignites my surface.
You set me on fire.